I'm not.Īnd it's the matter of being a human. That's the perceptivity and that's the matter. If you don't have a boy or girlfriend you cant exist in world.

When you say you're a gay they only laugh at you or ignore you.My mum's still silently crying why she's punished like this. Things not good here.Some people even don't know what a 'gay' means. And of course this doesn't change anything too.

When I say I was a gay to my parents, I was immediately send a psychologist to become a normal. It's just always hiding in a place of our lives.I wanna show people this,the truth.They of course don't wanna understand me. It really shocked me(Guess how we not acknowledged are). I see homosexuality exists before I was born.

But the books doesn't only help me to forget the devil. What happened then? I continue living with the devil.I can only forget the devil when I was reading a book. When I was in Qur'an Course in a mosque everyone says: 'Homosexual demons are invading the world.This is the doomsday!'Īnd so I hate homosexuality.It was all a demon in your soul and must be punished at once.Everyday I went the mosque and prayed God to become a normal and rescue myself from this devil. It was only a part of me, hiding and a silent part. 'Can a Turk be a gay? 'That's a question asking to the public in my country.That's a question about me.